Current mood:

sleepy

gosh im sick
well today i felt a lil better but not much... i think im gonna fall asleep any moment.. but i took some extra insulin so im more alert...

In 5 days im gonna be so excited.. but then again scared.. im so afraid Paul is gonna hate me or think im ugly and i'll end up crying.. I hope he doesnt but i cant make him feel certain ways...

ive been talking to bryce alot today.. he left me a message this morning that made me smile so that was awesome.. I think me and him are going through this awkward phase cause we kinda dont talk like we used to yet we're still kinda close.. i dont know what to do... i know he has a gf now and hes pulling toward her now, but then again I feel like we're still together and hes just having a hard time... I dont really know what to do... cause its like i want him back but then again theres Paul and Amanda.. and they dont deserve to be hurt.. plus me and Bryce still have our pact about when we're 28... so thats awesome..

i think i just need sleep